So obviously, I'm not very consistent with my blogging. I have been writing and editing this single blog post for a week and a half now. But have kept up with my photography! At the very least, I have photos to show you to make up for the massive gap in my blog. Life has been growing and I can feel it honestly now from within.
Before it was just so much pain, similar to when you're young and sprouting things hurt and you just can't figure out why. I was experiencing panic attacks for hours and days sometimes, feeling hopeless and in complete despair. Despite it I became proactive in making myself better. It was either learn to figure out how to enjoy this life or the alternative. Luckily every day gets better. I have been seeing many doctors, and things have been looking up. Although, It has been one of the slowest processes I have ever experienced.
And healing takes constant practice. Letting go to the ebb and flow of life can be quite challenging for me personally. I absorb any and all emotions around me and it can feel really overwhelming. I have overcome it though. I'm able to stay within myself now.
In the past few months I have linked up with a local magazine, Flora|Fauna. Not writing, but taking photos for them. I've stepped out of my comfort zone so much, even with all my social anxiety and issues from friendships in the past (that shit legit gave me ptsd).